Sorry seemed to be the hardest word...

   有时候我觉得这一路走来不容易. 有时侯, 一句简单的sorry就够了, 不过昨晚不知为何就是不能平扶我当时的心情. 我知道以我昨晚的态度, 以你的性格, 你一定不多问而吊头就带W离开.

   I took the train towards Admiralty, but after 10 minutes i stopped at Yew Tee, alighted and went back to Jurong East... I walked aimlessly around the interchange and food court, hoping to catch a glimpse of u.... I went to FairPrice, hoping to catch a glimpse of u..... I went to JCube and searched all 4 levels, hoping to catch a glimpse of u..... I bought a drink at 7-11 and sat at the stands on the 4th floor and watching people ice skate.... for around 30 minutes....

   U told me u did not need me to change the currency for u because u dun feel like going anymore.....  I start to ask myself if this is really all my fault end of the day.... I dunno anymore... 当时的我, 觉得委屈, 觉得不开心. I have been feeling down since the night before.... u are not wrong to say no to me the night before, but somehow I feel down... I remember telling u that sometimes u must lower your expectations towards certain things.... I realised I start to have expectations of u. And now I realised perhaps its wrong of me to have those expectations towards u. For now, u are not my regular partner, u are not my girlfriend, u are not even my lover.

  Must we always rely on my blog to convey my thoughts and feelings towards u? I dunno... maybe I have became a freak without me knowing..... I hope W loves the lego set.... I spent more than 3 hours walking to Atrium to get it, then walking around killing time while waiting for u, then walked my way from Tanglin Mall to Holland Village before taking a train back to Jurong. I did not want to go back home to take a short rest in case my mum asked, so I told u I be early, hoping u can come earlier to meet me. U may think that u are only slightly late than your scheduled 6.20pm, but perhaps to me, I spent most of the afternoon waiting for u. Hhhmmm wrong and misplaced expectations, but worst part is end of the day, we did not spent the evening together. I really look forward to seeing u, but I just cannot cheer myself up on time when I see u..... I had a long long day yesterday, not to mention I am already late for church even by the time u arrived and we did set off from Jurong....

  I know your temperament, I know your character. And you are right, so perhaps I have been wrong all these while. I overestimated myself......

  Guys should be more big hearted and initiate the "sorry" first... Sorry, but this time round, sorry seemed to be the hardest word.....

  PS I do look forward to JB trip, but from the look of things, I dun think it will happen. I leave it to u....